aur dan tebing

Posted in By beoma 2 comments

maybe its true. maybe betul aku suka dia. maybe dalam hati ni ada bisikan kecil

"maybe she can be a good wife for me"

"maybe she can be a good mother for my kids"


tapi dah terlambat kalau aku nak kejar dia. and, aku tak nak spend my few remaining months dekat fakulti ni catching someone i am unsure of the possiblity that we can be together. maybe thats the reason why i never have one all this time. yup, aku masih teruna. aku mana pernah bercinta, mana pernah rasa tenggelam dalam keghairahan mencintai dan dicintai (fulamak) mana pernah belajar rasa ditinggalkan. dan mana pernah merasa putus cinta.

haha

but never mind, thats not what i have in my mind pon, bukan benda yang aku perlu bimbangkan. i never give a damn pon.
walaupon sekarang dah tahun kelima, tahun terakhir inshaallah. mungkin at least i should have one history of a love story in my life resume kan?ke? hehe  i dont know. maybe not.

tapi

why should i ? kenapa aku perlu kejar? now? at this moment? not now.
aku tak nak spend lagi 4 bulan untuk orang lain, let me just make it a perfect 4 months to those around me, to those who i met since year 1, those i have been making lots of memories together.

burg, fithri, sufi, eddy, radin&kamil(walaupon virtually, dulu dekat twitter sekarang dah tak takpe blog masih ada hehe) and ramaaaaii lagiii

and burg specifically.

banyak aku terhutang budi kepada burg. orang lain mesti pelik kan kenapa aku tekankan gila friendship aku dengan burg. burg banyak bantu aku though, at my weakest point pon burg was there, as much as i tried to be for him. burg bimbing aku balik pada jalan yang betul, i dont know am i supposed to talk about it here tapi honestly kalau anyone who loves to read my blog deserve to know.

burg is the only friend since few years back yang akan tanya aku dah solat ke belum most of the time bila aku jumpa dia, despite of meeting him more than thousands times a day, anytime sebelom kitaorang nak melepak, and till now pon. and moreover now, it feels weird to do a prayer without him.

thats our bond.

i never met one like that. that kind of bestfriend.
who would wanna leave one like that kan?