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one of the good days

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harini OT, and OT ortho is very tiring i tell you. we gotta get oursleve really prepared for ortho OT. because it take longer time than normal OT unless simple cases la macam wound debride, I&D camtu but kalau nak kena remove internal fixation nak kena exchange ke nak kena insert ILN ke memang penat gila. sebab kena tolong reduce fracture sekali or kena pegang bone holder and give way much more effort than normal retraction. haha

and today aku tengok senarai OT ada bone grafting and exchange ILN dia and petang tu ada ILN insertion tgh hari tu ada la simple case satu.
and yeahhh penat gilaaa 

but as i told u in the topic itself, today is one of the good days.
sebab harini aku assist grafting tu, masukkan bone bone and kau kena pakai nontooth(?) tu utk collect2 small pieces of bones and kena sumbat2 dalam lubang kecik celah celah bone graft patient yang partial unite fracture and tangan kau mmg kena smooth and precise nanti berterabur la tulang2 tu. and i did well perhaps. my specialist told me to stay in surgical based and become a surgeon soon. rasa motivated gila. because i do love surgery more than medical. i dont like playing with infections, electrolyte imbalance and all this abstract shit. (tho i love drawing) but in ortho good in drawing is one of the bonus sebab nanti nak kena lukis balik gambaran tulang2 patah and what not and alhamdulillah part tu paling aku suka. tulis surgical report and draw few pics. dah mula well known for beautiful drawing in surgical reports. (berlagak sia).hahaha

and today i did the ILN insertion in the evening. one thing about ILN insertion is u have to cucuk than batang besi through the cortex of the bone and must pass through the fracture site. and i tell u nak pass through that fracture is dammmmmmn challenging, walaupon ada guide image intensifier tapi memang susah gilaaa and today at one attempt !!! i did it in one effing attempt hahahahaha best gilaaaa my specialist once again ask me to become medical officer in ortho soon ! hahaha 

ini semua kerja Allah, none of it purely from me. and im just a happy person being grateful to Him. for making today one more a happy day tho insan ni banyak berdosa.

looking forward for more beautiful days in houseman. 

tak tahu nganjing ke ikhlas.

missing this idiot daily

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the fact that we wont longer stay by each other sides 
after 5 years of melekat during medical student years
are just painful and too unreal.

just bunch of our words saying how we miss each other

let this friendship remains, tho how hard it is to stay missing each other.
sodiqati lillah

bro u hurt me

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say no more bro, i am damn missing you. 

one month already

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so how is our first month of being a houseman amar?

i dont know. mix feeling. tak tahu nak cakap apa. im in ortho so macam tak penat sangat but my performance is shit. rasa macam banyak menghampakan orang. i forgot things, i lost track of my patient.
most of the time my MO tanya soalan about patient aku banyak blur. macam lost track camtu. i know but i keep forgetting it. bila recall slowmo baru teringat and selalunya MO aku da dapat jawapan that time so i looked so stupid.

so far dah dua kali senior tegur semua. secara terbuka la and i sense some of them includes the mistakes ive done. haih. the learning process is fun. but dissapointing people and keep making mistakes are all the stuffs that spoil the day or sometime regress me.

tapi tu la, i still have the belief that the glitches are going to shape me better.


great start for the year !

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ok sebelom aku nak cerita pasal what had happened sampai aku bagi tajuk camtu, there are few things aku nak share sebelom tu. my life as a houseman for this past few days quite up and down. ada masa aku happy gila ada masa aku down gila.

bad things were i almost kill a patient during my first week, masa tagging haritu. so i have to sedate this one patient for CMR (close manual reduction) a procedure done in which we realign the patients fractured bones by pulling the hand from end to end. bunyi barbaric gila but that was the best method for CMR as researched. but we sedate the patient so basically dia tak rasa apa pon.
so masa aku nak sedate makcik ni aku masa tu tengah tagging. noob af la katakan. supposedly senior or MO supervise aku tapi semua kind of busy and i was given instruction already cumanya aku macam blur sikit so i oversedate this patient by giving her a full syringe (prepared by medical assistant) of midazolam and pethidine. which supposedly kena bagi by 2ml by time. so patient tu sedap ah tidoq lepas siap cmr aku hantar pergi radiology utk post CMR xray. that time masa aq documentating the procedures MO aku baru datang and asked how things went. so aku macam happily said okay je. my MO told me she was afraid i mistakenly give her full syringe of mida and pethidine and aku dengan muka gg nya cakap yg aq bg semua dose!

all along the way to radiology lab aku kena carut and kena marah. good things patient tu still alive and malam tu aku monitor je spo2 dia just to make sure she is fine. well masa tu aku rasa damn gila. rasa down jugak kena carut and kena marah. but now i will always remember that one thing. the real exact dose for sedation! fuhh

next, bad day i had was yesterday. macam shit. well i am simply a cheerful person, i wont deny it. aku memang suka gi kerja i literally said im ready like spongebob did. nerd af but im really happy and excited to go to work (so far). i love to greet people and smile to them. tapi pagi pagi lagi MO aku emo merajuk for idk whats the effing reason. malas nak cerita panjang but it spoils the morning already. later then i have to call another MO for some opinion (which is i was instructed by my MO previously) i greeted her/him through the phone real nicely then bila tanya opinion kena jerkah and marah marah.


apa masalah kau sial. like seriously apa masalah kau when people are being really nice at you pukul 9 pagi bukannya pukul 3 pagi, bg salam and being at my humblest as always tapi kau jerkah aku. like wtf?
pastu bila aku nak g clerk patient boleh plak terkepit tangan bawah seat kerusi, tak pasal pasal luka berkarat and kena inject ATT dekat bontot, sehari jugak pedih nak duduk. and haritu jugak staffnurse aku emo tetibe marah marah aku for some procedure-reason yang aku rasa still acceptable nak nak aku baru dua minggu dekat situ. so aku tak smooth and fasih dekat semua perkara lagi. so semalam quite damn la.

anyhow good things are,

i got offtagged in a week ! tagging period was tiring and macam a period of practical la. kena stay from 7 am to 10/11 pm. penat gila. but i managed to offtag my self in a week. me and my partner Azwa. usually first poster kena tag sampai sebulan at least but alhamdulillah dapat offtag awal dan jalankan tanggungjawab with a normal houseman schedule. but still byk kerja. like now pon pukul 8 baru boleh balik bilik tho jadual aku is at 5 pm dah habis. but nevermind. banyak dapat belajar.

so good thing today is !
MO aku cerita dekat aku yang specialist puji aku. waaaa happynya rasa. and she told me to stay at who i am. stay humble stay positive and stay with the attitude of mine now. alhamdulillah. lepas ni makin bersemangat nak bekerja despite some shit day i would have to go through. zzz. well stay the way we are !
and the conversation actually happen after the first incision i made to human skin! 4cm depth skin incision to made way for collected pus in my pt bedsore and for drainage of the pus. bleeding teruk jugak i had to call my MO to help me settle with it. compressing the bleeding site for 20 minutes jugak. quite a mess. but i learned few things la.

well so for thats it. a great start to 2017 tho ! yeah ni tahun baruuuu!

i miss burg tho.
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